It's not right. Everything is wrong here.
Today is alright.
more than good.
lesser than very.
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Starting off with congratulating myself
I GOT CERT FOR TOP THREE CHINESE.
yea.
drop from hmt,
if dont get then will throw gan laoshi's face.
(direct trans)
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zuper paiseh. lol
who wont.
and P said i was not myself,
um, okay, point taken but
i dont have a reason for myself.
haha.
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i dont know why SS passed
so snaily.
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SD rehearsal was the best ever for Cdance.
Seri commented the second one was much much better.
BUT, wait till you see the FULL SYF dance.
thats cool.
at least for me. i am a human in a well.
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hmm
i actually spent time with myself
on the journey home.
reminds me of Jan,
feb and a half-march period.
and
i dont miss any bit of that.
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home:
slacked ill 8,
dad mum bro went out.
bathed,
watched tv till 9,
make that 10.
watched .REC with brother,
couldent resist it.
and i ended up,
giving up
watching it.
lol. its gore. not pure gore but horrifying.
shall wait till kx and hopefuly some brave guys
to come over to watch.
I WANT TO ORGANISE HORROR MOVIE MARATHON.
(and force xinlin to come :D
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am i thinking too much?
I kept asking kx and val the same questions,
"Do you hate me?"
"Are you angry with me?"
I feel insecure.
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wonder why it is a mono-post?
cus, i had a realisation just before i wanted to blog.
Everyone knows
"Actions speak louder than words"
but in some cases,
its better to keep quiet and do the "forbidden thing"
(infinate quotation cus i dont know how to describe it)
in that sense so that you still spare a though for others.
And have principles of a human.
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dont understand?
in hanyupinying:
Zuo Ren de Yuan Ze
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it shows everyone what you are and where you belong to.
the high class?
middle class?
low class?
no class.
you can be filthy rich and sucessful
but without proper principles,
you are nothing,
at least i deem,
class-less.
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You may seem to own alot now,
but wait.
days, weeks and months
are not considered.
Years are what shows everything.
.
If you can do that to someone,
you sure can do it again.
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Its wrong, everythings wrong here.
Regret.
I think you've changed.
Please change again,
i dont want to lose this friendship,
if it still has any worth left.
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Anything below this line is unrelated.
______________________________
Mrs Sin said,
" Its all about the attitude there."
i passed my math test and ITS ADD MATH.
lol
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I wonder if i were in your shoes,
will my principles still be present?
Will i have the patience to tell myself the consequences
of the decision i might make?
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if i gave in,
i will not be happy,
for some time.
If i persist,
i will feed myself with guilt,
maybe when i grow up.
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It is the attitude i am having now.
I dont think i like people seeing me this way.
Fallen.
i dont like it.
i dont want it.
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But i must at least have the responsibility and maturity
to handle,
though my up-bringing and past-events are obstructing.
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This is an appeal to someone.
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Written from a thrid person review on a first person recount.
(note to readers: This is a very un-understandable post, sorry, it is mainly meant for furture personal reminders"