HELLO!
I feel happy today.
just woke up alright.
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sis and bro not at home.
quite peaceful.
ha,, jk
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i shall blog a few more sentences
before eating lunch.
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sigh, i think i cant control myself anymore.
i get bothered (or jealous).
maybe i would want her to do the things if i were her.
but you know she is she.
i mean i dont blame her alright.
its me la.
maybe i am sensative.
i get abit pissed (to some emo)
after seeing and hearing them.
i want to be zi lian OK.
not dan lian.
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ok, off to lunch
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lunch's finished.
sigh. he's not on9 anymore.
nvm.
i shall try again.
harder this time.
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have maths and history to complete.
oh ya. and dnt,
which i dont really care.
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shall i do my history first?
then maths?
then dnt?
zzzzz
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just rmbed have dance tmr.
tmd my leh like crap again,
hope willll be betteeeerrr tmmmr.
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shall talk about my future.
actually i want to be in a dance troupe.
like travel round the world to perform.
but its hard ya.
i think iam not those study study
and everyday sit in a box typing com
and wait for boss to order me round.
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its boring seriously, cannot tahan.
need to move round or at least use my creativity JUice.
i would like to be an artist also,
but its... no income.
will be only famous when i die
-_-
so what now?
sports?
nah, i am only enthu, not good.
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then?
i have doubts about going uni.
my sis dint, my bro idk.
my acad is the worse among them
seriously.
i mean at their age you know.
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my sis already said i am more of the speaking doing and creating.
writting can kill me.
but since tts the case i must still complete my studies
so to get a job.
anyjob will require a degree right.
must chiong siol.
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i want to do BIG things.
BIG
but how?
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sigh, i frett when i grow up will become
materialistic.
and dont care bout friendship and family.
very self-centred.
i hope i wont alright.
its scary,
cuz i have a friend who is like that.
or begining to be like that.
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actually sometimes,
i like leading.
in dance or anything.
i feel very um, independent?
i love feeling independent.
x_x
oh
bout dance,
i hope all of us will unite,
seriously,
only that we will be strong again.
i see most of us now are picking up.
wish there will be more.
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back to t topic.
sigh, i dont want to end up
jobless and do things i dont like to.
i know a quote which is very ture
"one will do well in the things he love"
if i dint know how to dance,
i will not like it.
most prob ok.
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but if that really happens,
i still can make the best out of it.
at least i still will have my family
and friends, i think.
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my sis says when all of us go out to work,
its very hard to find a best friend like now.
and your bestfriend now will most prob
lose contact or not as close
or i dk.
i dont feel like growing up.
ihateworries
i will see my friend and the first words
will be
"hey havent seen you in a few years!"
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i like the way it is now.