it is very painful to breathe
now
every time i wake up
i will think of how to solve
the problem
but
there seems to
be no solution
alot changed
since
that particular incident
i cannot share it with
anyone.
not even kaixian
i want to tell
someone
just someone
it is not that i dont trust
kaixian or you
but
its really a
secret i must not say
BUT
i will tell someone
bcuz i
will explode if i keep it too long.
i know i have
changed
i can feel that too
i hope the me will be back soon
now i can cry because of
little things
out of boredom,
maybe.
monday's chinese paper.
what can i study?
i am locked on weekends.
bo bian
mother at home
and
the com's ALWAYS
"booked" by my brother
then
i can only
sleep and sleep and sleep
calling him is another option
but he is buzy
can call kaixian too
but not all the time right?
i shall end here first
my brother wants to use the com
AGAIN.
she wants to have herself back-